2009 Theme: Found

From my random mind….

Hello Again! February 21, 2009

Filed under: Life Lessons,Musings — jennifersworld @ 10:30 am

Since New Year’s Eve 2005, Crystal, Meg and I have had a tradition (Meg started it!) where instead of making new years resolutions we chose a theme to define the year ahead. Resolutions get broken way to easily (mine are usually done by January 2!) The first year, mine was “Expect the unexpected” which was followed quickly by “Be content where you are”. After that came “Play the Game” and last year was “No Day but Today”; learning to take life one day at a time, not trying to borrow trouble from the next day.
This year, my theme is: Found.

It is taken from the lyrics to a song by the Fray.
I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, Where you been?
He said, Ask anything.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who’s ever known
Who I am
Who I’m not, and who I want to be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

Early morning
The city breaks
I’ve been calling
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve
Taking all I want

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you, where were you?

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

Why’d you have to wait
To find me, to find me?

I gotta little lost after I finished Grad school. I changed so much in the 12 months I was becoming a behavior analyst. Some changes for the good, and the jury is still out on some others. But all those changes left me struggling to figure out where I am, who I am and what I need to do… But I’m done being lost. I am ready to be found…

 

First Semester: a recap December 20, 2007

Filed under: Auburn,Musings — jennifersworld @ 11:36 pm

So, I moved to Alabama 4 months ago, and I started grad schoool at Auburn. They told me that it would be hard work, but I never expected it to be this much work… I feel like I haven’t had time to breathe since the first day…
This semester, my practicum rotations include working at an Early Intervention Preschool as a case manager for a kiddo with Autism, and teaching a parenting class for the Alabama Department of Human Resources (which as near as I can tell is the department of children and families back home) Anyway, I learned how to potty train a kid (many, many hours in the bathroom, seriously, my friends started calling me the resident potty!) how to explain complicated behavioral terms to undereducated parents. Not too bad.
I also took some classes, which were way harder than undergrad classes. Harder than anything I’ve ever done before… But I made out ok, I did well!
I experienced football in the SEC, which is really unlike football anywhere else. I got to roll Toomers corner after beating Alabama for the 6th straight year… Amazing stuff
I made some friends, some really good friends, there were many nights spent eating, studying, complaining and working can bond people together in ways you’d never imagine.
I learned some very important things about myself (see the analyzing your own behavior post below) which are not for posting on a blog… (definitely a coffee convo!)
Next up: the other practicum rotation, more classes, more hard work, more fun, and a masters degree… Stay tuned!
Auburn University ABA-DD Class of 2008 We Beat Bama again!!  Six years in a row Driving the Bus at the Supper Club

 

Counting the cost February 12, 2007

Filed under: Musings — jennifersworld @ 2:14 pm

Yesterday was an interesting day. I went to church with a friend in the morning. And for some reason, I was left pondering the cost of my sin. A song lyric got stuck in my head “I’ll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.” (Mind you, I haven’t sung “Here I am to worship” in a while) And with that rolling around in my head, I actually thought about what it cost Christ to bear the weight of my sin as He hung on the cross. I’ve never really thought about it before, but yesterday, it was all I could think of.
My sin, my poor decisions, my inability to do what I know is right cost so much. Not only Jesus’ life, because I’m pretty sure that wasn’t the main source of His anguish on the cross. For the first time ever, Jesus was seperated from the Father, not only seperate, but God couldn’t look at Jesus. My sin was so hideous that God literally turned His back on Christ, He had too. The result of Christ’s death is that we never have to deal with God turning His back on us. Any distance we feel from the Father is our own doing. We will never know what it feels like to have God not be able to look at us. And Christ knows that pain. That is what my sin has cost…. I don’t fully understand what this means, or what I’m supposed to do with this knowledge…. We’ll see…

 

…And to all a goodnight December 24, 2006

Filed under: Musings — jennifersworld @ 8:21 pm

“And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
“Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests.”

Merry Christmas!!!