I made the short list of grad school candidates at Auburn University (which is conviently located in Auburn Alabama!) I am going to Alabama March 2-4 to interview…. YAY!!!
Counting the cost February 12, 2007
Yesterday was an interesting day. I went to church with a friend in the morning. And for some reason, I was left pondering the cost of my sin. A song lyric got stuck in my head “I’ll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.” (Mind you, I haven’t sung “Here I am to worship” in a while) And with that rolling around in my head, I actually thought about what it cost Christ to bear the weight of my sin as He hung on the cross. I’ve never really thought about it before, but yesterday, it was all I could think of.
My sin, my poor decisions, my inability to do what I know is right cost so much. Not only Jesus’ life, because I’m pretty sure that wasn’t the main source of His anguish on the cross. For the first time ever, Jesus was seperated from the Father, not only seperate, but God couldn’t look at Jesus. My sin was so hideous that God literally turned His back on Christ, He had too. The result of Christ’s death is that we never have to deal with God turning His back on us. Any distance we feel from the Father is our own doing. We will never know what it feels like to have God not be able to look at us. And Christ knows that pain. That is what my sin has cost…. I don’t fully understand what this means, or what I’m supposed to do with this knowledge…. We’ll see…